The Adventure of Motherhood
Anyone who knows me, knows that I don’t do well with change. I am wedded to a lot of routines and it takes a little extra for me to try something new. Part of my reluctance for change has to do with the fear of the unknown. I like planning and running different scenarios in my mind. I like planning for all the potential outcomes of a situation. When I can’t plan for a potential situation, it makes me really uncomfortable. Lucky for me, once in a while I do venture out of my comfort zone and surrender to the journey of the unknown. This rare journey into the unknown is the reason why the past year and a half has been quite the adventure. The adventure of motherhood is the biggest and most rewarding unknown of my entire life.
Becoming a Mother
Becoming a mother has changed me in so many ways. I have laughed, loved and lived harder than I thought was ever possible since the arrival of my son. This little being has changed me in so many ways and I cannot thank him enough. The best lesson my son has taught me is to learn to go with the flow. Don’t get me wrong, I am still set in many of my ways, but he has taught me that sometimes, things cannot be controlled. You just have to ride the wave of the unknown and see what happens on the other side.
Starting a Photography Business
Had I not become a mother, I don’t know whether I would be taking a leap of faith into the next chapter of my photography journey. Having a newborn gave me lots of photography practice. Running around after my son with a camera has become a common sport in this household. It’s given me thousands of hours of training that would not have happened otherwise. Capturing images of my son also made me realize how much of a passion I have for photography. I love taking pictures, I always have; I’ve been taking pictures since I was a teenager. However, the emotional connections I have with my images, as a mother, are more profound than they were before. Being a mother has also given me the audacity to think that I can actually provide a service to other families out there. So far in my journey, I have met such wonderful and supportive families that have taken a chance on me. They've allowed me into their homes and let me capture a moment in time in their daily lives. Without these families, I wouldn’t be able to do what I am doing. I will be forever grateful to these families. As my journey continues, I hope to meet more families that I can share my passion with.
Just go with the flow
I still have a lot to learn about going with the flow. I’m still going to obsessively plan and track things as much as I always have. My various spreadsheets for life are not going anywhere. That being said, the fact that I have taken a chance on myself, have started a business, am writing this blog and am putting my work out there shows that the journey into the unknown is not impossible. Will I still be reluctant to change? Yes. Will I still have what if scenarios running in my mind? Yes. Will I still order the same exact burrito I’ve been ordering for the past two decades? Most definitely. That being said, I feel like I am more willing to take chances. I am more willing to make changes. I am more willing to journey into the unknown. I want to make sure I don’t miss out on something special just because I am so set in my ways. So far, these journeys into the unknown have brought such fun adventures and I am looking forward to what the future may bring.